confuse.. do i like you? i am afraid that i might do the wrong decision again. and again, i all hurt myself. and again, i hurt someone. been telling myself that love grows. but apparently, it does not. why do people had to make decision? why cant i just slack around and let fate do all the decision making? i am tired. tired of being loved. tired of loving someone. tired of everything that had been and happening in my life. life does not suck. but it is just tiring. so tiring that sometimes, it just drain out all my energy. energy for me to love someone. energy for me to think. still remembering the first time that i fell in love. excited and it feels so good that i wanted to fall in love again. but why do i feel so suffocating now?