officially out of job as a sales girl now. damn it.. how long have i been working in this line? i think i have turned rusty after i quitted silvertouch. or shall i say i dont have to handle the relationship between colleagues when working in silvertouch. i just couldnt get use to life sitting around in the shop doing nothing but gossiping about what a hunk the customer is or what a bitch his girlfriend is. just because i am a new girl doesnt give 'em a chance to toss every of the hardwork to me. i am sick and tired of going to work everyday, talking to a butch of sickening boot-licker. i had no choice. i had to quit. i had to get the hell out of there asap.

i cant seems to catch up. everyone is moving forward except for me. i am so lack behind in studies that i wonder i should continue or not. i miss my old school. i miss my friends. i miss my teacher. i miss the laughter we use to have in the class. i regretted saying you crap too much, Ms Syafeena. Mrs Foo, i regretted saying your unpresentable armpit hair and refuse to attend your lesson. Mdm tami Mohan, i am sorry that i say you are a indian rapper. the teacher i have now is so much lousier then you all are. they are monotoned, retarded and so un-fun. what's worst? he is really suck at telling a joke. now i would love to have a teacher that raps, a teacher whom we can laugh at, a teacher that will crap with us.

dearest mingyueh, i am sorry that i always made fun of you when you speak perfect english. but though you speak perfect english, you will never laugh at me for being a neighbourhood school student and you taught me how to pronouce them well. chorpeng, jackson and gang, sorry for scolding you guys noisy. thanks for making our class full of laughter. guanjie, i regretted thinking you are nosey when you care so much more then anyone else for me. thanks for not forgetting the blur me and encourage me through my hardest time. so sorry weilong, for giving you so much trouble at studies. you never stop waking me up when i fell deep into a non-studying mood. yet in the past, i thought you always loved to force us study. you guys are so much more understanding then some of my friends here. you guys will never despise me just because i am from a neighbourhood school or just because i dont understand any of the thing that Mr yip says.

the school is never so big in the past. i dont have to run from classes to classes to make it on time. i dont have to late for class just because the lift is full. and i dont have to look for seats in the canteen. i miss you, bedok north sec! i regretted saying you a non-capable(wu neng) school. i regret hoping that you are bigger then what you are now. and i regretted think of suggesting lift in the school.

one will only missed the thing when they lost it. why? because we know we will never be able to get it back.