Posted Saturday, December 11, 2010 by MoMO
Sometimes I feel like life is just like a dream. It can be a sweet dream at some point but yet, an nightmare suddenly. The only differents is that, if life is an nightmare, you can never be able to wake up from it. But the good point is, you are able to make your life to a sweetdream. Yet dream is smth you cannot control.

And yes, finally my nightmare with Alvin had ended for aboout 5 mths now. Or maybe more then that. I just cant seems to remember it clearly. As what most of the people says, you will only remember the bad times and not the good times well. Which is why i cant remember how long I had live without the presence of him. All seems like a dream to me. And its turning itself to a sweetdream now.
Posted Saturday, July 10, 2010 by MoMO
It's 4am in the morning. I just cant get to sleep. Ever since i broke up with Alvin, i am afraid to sleep in the dark. The bed seems so spacious now. And my pillow seems so little. I kinda miss the hug i always get when I hop into my queen size bed with him in it. Feel cold now without his arm around me. But this is the decisions that i had make. And i must bear through it.

I miss the maggie mee he cook..
I miss how he hug me..
I miss how he hold me in his arm..
But ultimately, i miss my freedom before I am with him.
Posted Tuesday, July 06, 2010 by MoMO
What should i do when i feel lousy? I already tried eating steamboat as usual. But this time alround, it does not work. It's just like taking a lift up high floor at a high speed.. My heart sinked.

I dont want to leave where I am standing now. But then again, do i have a choice? Even if i do have a choice, do i have what it takes to protect what i want and the person I loved? Am I up to the standard I think I have?
Posted Friday, December 25, 2009 by MoMO
there are so many people who love me for who i am. why am i ruining my life by being together with a guy like this. i guy who cause me misery. the only guy who make me cried in front of ppl. a guy that make me lost my way in life. a guy that trash me. a guy that change me from who i use to be. i shall not regret knowing him. i shall not regret breaking up with him. it's just myself to blame for everything. i cant blame anyone. the tears.. that i had not yet shed in front of my family since 12. he make me shed in front of them. he pushed me to my limit that i think i had lost myself. who i really were. the girl who fear nothing and the girl who always enjoyed her days in all her 20 years. until he came into my life. he crush the very last bit of standing ground for me and i am leave tangling in the middle of no where.. not knowing where should i go and who should i lean on. i need a rope. i need someone. i need a space to breath and i need audrey from year 2008. anyone, please find her for me please.................
Posted Thursday, October 15, 2009 by MoMO
i remember when we were young, happiness can be found so easily, so within reached, so easily contented. even the slightest thing we saw, we get, can get us happy for the entire day or even week. looking back to now, life is never contented. humans are hard to please.

i also recall one of my primary school mate telling me something about life, that we are always lacking something in our life: when we are young, we have youth, we have time, but we dont have money. when we are adult, we have youth, we have money, but we dont have time as we are working. when we became old, we have time, we have money, but we have no more youth to enjoy. after he said that, i am very much agree with it.
Posted Monday, October 05, 2009 by MoMO
i feel so shag now and my brian cant even think probably what i want or have to write. and i think that this entry might seems to look a bit monotone. argh.. major hangover.

went to puiluan's birthday and after a few rounds of mahjong and poker, we decided to walk over to the nearby store and grap some drinks. and it seems like normal convenient store like econ or 7-11 doesnt sell tequila. like duh.. so we decided to settle on mild drinks like jim beam cola and some ulo brands that i didnt heard of. and trust me, the jim beam suck. by the time we finish our drinks and ben send us home, it's already 2 am. (dont feel like using the word "already", but i have no life after working office job..)

to make it even more worse by reaching home at 2am, i have to wake up at 8 in the morning the next day. alright.. i know i still can sleep for another 7 whole hours. but i need at least a 10 hours of sleep. (i admit i am pig)meet up with ite friends for gathering. well, actually it's not a gathering initially. but it somehow ended up like that. *audrey shrug. and i just feel tt if i have not go for it, none of the things would have happen. if people are unappreciated, let them be. it will just spoil your wonderful days by thinking about it and pondering about it.

after the gathering dinner, kx, eugene, shouxiang, kok, edric and me went to alph cafe for a 3 in 1 entertainment. soccer, ktv and drinks. lol. nice recommendation by kok. had a long island tea and sex on the alph (an imitation of sec on the beach but in cocktail size). small contradict about the long island tea. kok thinks that it taste like ice lemon tea, my our dear kx thinks it taste nothing at all like tea. "it's a mixture of all liquor!! eww~!" says kx. lol! back home at about 2 plus again. nobodies at home and i took out the leftover vodka to finish it. dang~ that's how the major hangover comes about. stupid. slept 4am, wakes up 6am.

P.S:
people who cant live their live without a lie in it is pathetic. i cant see why you have to lie about small matter. for the sake of fun? to make your life or story sounds more interesting? i really, really,really x infinite, hate people who tell different stories to different people. and why? what happen? why do you like every stuff tat we like when you are in front of us, but yet, in front of others, the things that you love became hate? oh, let me guess, to suit the different taste of others? you are such a bootlicker. you disgust me. and dont say i gave you attitude when you are the one who started all these crap and disgusting moves. and let me tell you something, dont say you have depression when you dont. stop being a drama queen and stop thinking that the world had owe you something. maybe you do have depression. that's why you like to think up so much stories. to think that you are an
unfortunate princess who falls into a world full of evil people and step sisters. you are such a joke. i never had anyone in my life that disgust me more then you do.
and please, dont piss people off and says that people are giving you attitude. and you thought that all the people have attitude problem. but have you ever thought that the person who have a attitude problem is you? i admit and i, myself have attitude problem. but i think you have both attitude and character problem. but then, i want to let you know,i dont hate you, i hate your moves. i really dont hate you, you just disgust me. that's all. =)
Posted Thursday, September 17, 2009 by MoMO
today, i broke my heart again. it had been 9 months when i first got together with him. and ever since i know him, i cannot remember the days my pillows are dry. i am really tired of everything. i have done everything i can as a girlfriend. i wait for him to finish work. even if he is having ot without telling me. i cook for him no matter how tired i am. and i thought about him before i plan my schedule. i make myself free almost everytime he is free. but he just doesnt have any spare time
for me. i tolerate anything he scold me, his smoking habit and his suspicious behaviour of having another girl outside. and he just treated me like trash. i have nothing to say. and i have no more tears to shed. it's so tiring when we both know. we both know that this relationship wont work out. what are we holding on for? because he's too old to get another girlfried? he is too lazy to say the word break?
or is it just me? hoping him to change back what he once was, a perfect boyfriend. just like how i am holding on to the unfit ring he gave me. clinging on so tight. using so much energy to keep it loosing out. i have no more energy to do all this.. i am hurt all over. physically and mentaly. is there any float to hold on to?

hey, anyone? can anyone save me from this...?
Posted Wednesday, September 16, 2009 by MoMO
yes Yes YES! my blog revived!! i bought a new laptop! yeah!! and i got my internet up and running!(double yeah!)people wont know the excitment of getting the lappy and internet up and running! i just have no fate in having internet at home. either my router broke down and i have to secretly tag my neighbour internet connection or my lappy broke down when i sign up for mobile boardband. argh! it's so fustrating.

anyway, after the big dream talk in my previous entry, i really think that dreams is a very unbelievable thing. almost all my friends are in the career industry now after graduated from tertiary school life. and of course, there are some who seek further study. and i find that all of us has gone into career that we least expect us to go. like for example me, i have change my job (yes, again), and working in a engineering company. yes! three cheers for bidding goodbye from long working hours, irregular meals, working on holidays & weekends, attitude customers and low leave days!

and cheers to kitmun who "take over" my dream to work as a nurse and work for almost 2 years. lol! the most unexpected friend who became a nurse. yes, the once so fierce and attitude kitmun. and she still is! and obviously, she, too, also never dream about being a nurse. jess, my primary school friend, became a property agent. and friend who became a gym instructor.

anyway, earning money is more important than dreams. so yea.
Posted by MoMO
a blog that supposingly to be pulished on the may of 5..:

my blog have been dead for almost half a year. too busy to blog with my current job. and my laptop had been spoil ever since i quit my last job. the talk about buying a new laptop have been going on for months and i end up saving up for an oversea trip rather then getting a laptop.

time passes fast. and i had already graduated from secondary for more then 3 years. realising it only when i finally able to go for my break time, sitting on a toilet bowl in the toilet cubicle. thinking about how all of us had been talking about our future, our ambition, our dream & career. but when now is the future that we had been talking about since young, is this the future we talked about and dreamed about? i remember i once wrote about a composition in mother tounge class. the topic is "ambition". and i wrote about how i wanted to become a nurse(no kidding!. but now,i am a gradute engineer and i am a sales assistence in a store that name is not even under me. is this wat a dream is all about? but of course, when i grow up, being a nurse is not my dream anymore. as working under government, having shift work and fighting off virus at front line is not included in my so call dreams. lol. but working as a sales assistence? never in my dream before.
Posted Thursday, July 30, 2009 by MoMO
i feel like a bloody fool waiting alone in somewhere i least familiar. And he is happily eating at somewhere alre now. i am freaking tired of every moment i spend with him. Should i end everything?
Posted Tuesday, February 24, 2009 by MoMO


yea!! i found a new job! i found a new job!! i am so excited!~ getting rid of my disgusting work place and boss is the most happiest thing that happen to me in this month~ woohoo! and WUIHAO! yes you! i work as a sale person and i dun need to sacrifice my hair. lol!
but.. boowoo for leaving my best working mate in suntec. sob.. T.T the one and only reason that keep me working in this lousy environment(apart from the salary).. and i am so gonna miss tingyun for all the good food that i had eaten with her. argh.. and lynn for telling me all those exciting stories. jasmine for complaining all the customers with me. jayner for given me fashion site to surf and aunty annie for all those life stories. lol. argh.. miss them miss them miss them!! expecially the food part. lol!! i am so gonna bored-to-death at my new working place with them.
sign.. goodbye suntec, goodbye all working mates, goodbye all the good foods...
Posted Sunday, February 08, 2009 by MoMO
argh.. been busy thinking of changing a job and i simply got no time to blog. searching for jobs online had taken up too much of my surfing time. -_-

bad boss, bad pay, bad job.. recently i have been thinking, should i find a job that has more prominent and bright future job. a more stable and more regular timing job. ARGH! just any job that is better than this. i start to consider whether i should work office job but.. just the thought of sitting there staring at the computor the whole day, make me feel sick. making money is never an easy job(unless you work for the government, printing money..), but finding a job that one like and suitable is harder than i thought.
Posted Friday, December 05, 2008 by MoMO
finally i have upload all the photos in my phone to my beloved laptop.


from top left - the fabulous fried omelette noodle from takahimaya basement one! pros: it's added with cheese on top and some common ketchup. normal but a fabulous combination of sauce. cons: it does not provide any seats for consumers and it's quite messy to eat.

what else to say? the "famous, everyone knew it" mcdonald's. located almost everywhere in singapore. pros: it's fast to buy, fast to eat and easily consume almost anywhere without any seats. cons: IT'S JUST SO SICK TO EAT THE SAME THING EVERYTIME.

third photo to sixth - tonkatsu ramen, teriyaki bento, chawanmushi and potato salad from MOF located at suntec basement 1. pros: good taste for first timer on japanese food. cons: just not that nice for people who savours almost all japanese food like me.

long john silver. my classic favourite fast food located also almost anywhere. pros: it's so nice and crunchy. just love it. love the tender chicken. love their season ice lemon tea. love their crunchy on the outside and soft in the inside fries.conclusion? just love it. cons:it's so oily and it make me grow fat. but who care as long as the food is nice rite? lol.

last two pictures - tempura mushroom and mushroom soup from The machè vivocity. pros: the fried to perfection mushroom top with lemon juice(optional) combine with the all uses tar tar sauces. the taste is so perfect for the mushroom. the soup is cooked by melting mushroom. so all u will be tasting is mushrooms. not like the mushroom soup with white base, it's brown in colour. so expect the chief to cook it with all mushrooms. cons: hmm.. it's just so.. fried mushroom? not as special as i thought it will be.



why people just love to take their photo in a public toilet? answer: just adore that lighting effect and their super mega big size full length mirror. well, at lest i am one of them who adore taking my picture in the toilet. lol. apart from the full length missor that they have, i love their multi mirror which i can use to adjust my camera view. (my camera phone does not have a front camera. lol)



anyway, these photos are taken after putting on kerxing's make up. go with her navy friend and slack in hush hush till late.



went to changi airport and eat and saw this urn shape fountain. retarded us start posing in front of it with foreigners.



take and run on act. it's a "no taking photo" store. lol. first two photo are taken in "the otaku's house" located at suntec city. last two is taken at the suntec branch's toys'r'us.



featuring the "retarded 2" by Audrey and Alvin. continued their journey with their retard act. props sponsor by mumu in suntec.



precious thot! aww.. i so wanted to touch it. and yes! i saw that car in singapore skyper's carpark. mom? can i have it? can i can i?



christmas decorations in vivo and marina square.the reindeer look more like a buffalo to me. lol!!




first photo taken when i saw kitmun getting down form her block. hur hur hur, stalker audrey. and continue with eating in a mache look-alike japanese restaruant. the food there is so so sooo nice!! *audrey drool.



the atmosphere there is good too. and i really wanted to try all the food there in one day.. damn it, shoulden have eat before going there. spend about thirty bucks in there.



the mochi photo taking sessions. lol. photographed by the self proclaim "oh-so-famous" photographer Audrey and Kitmun.



aww.. dun we just love the photo sessions in the toilet? never mind, just let those guys wait. (now we all know ahy the girls took so long in the damn toilet.)
Posted Friday, November 28, 2008 by MoMO
ok, alright. i admit that i ate slightly more than other people ever since i work. ... (...moment of silence..)ALRIGHT! much more than other people now can?? ever since i start work, my appetite grow in a very scary way. i remember i cant finish a bowl of noodle back in my ite days. but now, i almost ate 7 meals a day if i can get the chance. or eat 2 or 3 potion of what people ate in one meals. me and my friend travel after my work to different places and eat. chomp chomp, simbang bedok, market 85, changi village, changi airport and geyland. where else can we find 24 hour's food!! mcdonald's,audrey.. (no way!)but the weird thing is, before working, i am 52 kilograms. now? 51. weird.. and while i am typing this, i am hungry again!! argh.. i am afraid i will grow fat soon. but you ARE fat audrey..(oh shut up..) sharks.. i am craving for o--ah-jian(fried oyster) without "o-ah"(oyster)..
Posted Wednesday, November 05, 2008 by MoMO
finallyyyy!! i have time off and stay at home like no body business. i can roll about in my beloved bed till afternoon without having the alarm clock to wake me up! day off hurray! i can clear and clean up my room! and blog everything that i miss out! alright, let's start with the blogging.

a little role explaination before moving on:

top left to right:simei as little devil, derrick as reaper, dan as dracula, night safari guy as dracula no. 2, jason as scream.
bottom left to right:kerxing as japanese kimono girl, me as pirate.


just have time to check my mail and the halloween pictures are out. yeah!! audrey did a happy dance! on the 25th october, kerxing, dan, jason, derrick, simin and i went to the night safari for their early halloween night. we went there all dress up to realise in shock that we're the only visitors that are so crazy into this thing.. -_- oh well.. this is singapore. what to expect? not all singaporean are as enthusiatic as us. what to do? just enjoy the night! jason the scream is so busy taking photo once he reach the zoo. lol. guess scream is the most in thing at halloween *audrey the pirate weeped. let's let the pictures do all the talking now.

the legendary batman car. (parked at beach road??!!)


taken with the crew member at night safari. the lady in red is sooo scary.


taking a photo before going on the journey.


all black and one red.


pirate bullying the kimono girl. hur hur hur


scream lost to a...pirate..?


bridge of hell! a road of no return~!!!


how many toilet roll did he use??!!


group photo with a crew.. the poison ivy. is "she" a he or she?


dont sneak up on me! ar bish!


that baby boy is so adorable! and he smell nice too.. yum. lol!


aye mate! ya a pilot? me a pirate!


!!?? kerxing!! keRXING!what's tt thing coming up at you!!
*this is the last day we saw kerxing. lol. (kidding)
Posted Sunday, October 26, 2008 by MoMO
it's make me feel sick just by looking at you. you think you are high and mighty and all people around you are nothing but trash. think about it twice. you are nothing but someone with only looks and financial power. other than that. you are even worse than a trash. people like you who thought that "just because i am good looking, girls will fell for me. and no matter what i said to them, they will forgive me." well, yeah right. you think too much of yourself. people like you who only have the outer look disguest me most. i dont denied that you are good looking. but the way you present yourself is even more uglier than the person you have insulted. people like you dont deserve a good girl like her to fall for you. you should consider yourself to be even loved by her. and i really mean loved(with a past tense). i tell you what, your disgusting looks does not attracts me at all. so dont try too hard. and i think you are pretty pathetic. cause no one ever love you for who you are. they just fell for you because you are rich and with that good looks of your's. dont get too cocky yet. cause when you get old and lost your looks, you will be nothing at all. go for plastic surgery for all you want with your money. and still the same, people will only fall for your looks. you have done the most incorrect things to insult my friend like that. and i hope you get your just dessert. and please! respect the elderly even if they are just a tissue seller! you inhuman disguesting earth existence. your existence just make me feel uncomfortable. and just the thought of breathing the same air with you, disguest me even more.
Posted Monday, October 20, 2008 by MoMO
ever since i started this job, my mind just went blank everytime i reach home. all i can think of is to rest. and on how to hit sales the next day. it's not just business bad. there is no poeple at all. and i mean, literally, no people for me to sell things to. if there are some poeple in the shopping mall, i dont mind jumping out to them like some squirrel who saw nuts, just to get them buy.cant possible ask me to go out of the shopping mall and hold people by their hair and drag them in right? (oh well, maybe not dragging them by their hair.) hope i can work in place that can keep me busy with. just so hard to get by each day without much things to do. and yes! i am working now as i type this.
Posted Monday, September 15, 2008 by MoMO
if you can get something yourself, dont ask other's to get it for you.
if you ask other's to get it for you, dont hurry that someone.
if you hurried that someone, dont expect him/her to face you with a smile.
if you expect him/her to face you with a smile, dont be ungrateful to the things
he/her did. cause THAT someone is not your errand boy. and he/her did not get paid to do all these stuff for you. receive it with thanks and not with a ungrateful
face. no one owns you anything in this world and neither do we. so dont give me that
attitude face of your's. i dont take it.
Posted Tuesday, September 02, 2008 by MoMO
good bye the days of taking photo (photo photo photo~~~ echo)! *audrey yelling into the sky. i just cant seems to live without taking photo. i mean, taking photo of others and things. *audrey stalker i dont like taking photo of myself(too ugly to be taken) but i love taking still objects and scenery, not to mention other human beings. maybe my perfect job will be stalker. hur hur hur but recently(not too recent), my camera turn it's back against me.. throwing a temper? rebellious age?(hello? you are nothing but just a lousy 7.5 mega pixel old camera and nobody but the kind audrey bought you!) well,.. it's spoil for good. and at a good timing too. after my beloved camera goes haywire, events after another event lines up.. my friends going ns and will be holding a small celebrations(?), friend's birthday party, gatherings and sentosa etc etc. my god~ i just cant remember events without my camera. guess i have to buy a new one soon. or shall i let my sister do the buying? hur hur hur~

rest in peace, camera, you will be remembered by me always.

R.I.P
here lies the body of audrey's camera
year 2006~2008

Posted Saturday, August 30, 2008 by MoMO
argh.. having a serious muscle ache. maybe i didnt stretch properly when i play badminton yesterday.. -.- die.. tommorow have to play with my sister again.. think you have to sacrifies something for the things that you like. same goes with everything in life.
lack shopping, lack in nutritent, lack in time..
Posted by MoMO
ok.. i redo-ing the whole of my blog. i know that i took a super long time to do it. cause i really really X 100 have no time to do it. argh! wish that i have 48 hours a day instead of 24. people who had been asking me to update my blog, ya, i'm sorry. *laugh. please give me sometime to finish this damn thing. i do it from scretch. all the cursor and border and colour and every other shit things. but.. i stole the picture from the net. *evil laugh.
Posted Saturday, May 10, 2008 by MoMO
it is a horrible feeling to withness death. i just realise that death is fond of taking away life of people who value thenselves and other's.one who dont expect to die at a young age died. one who have a fabulous road ahead died.those who haven bid good bye to their loved one died. and yet, some people who dont value their own life failed in commiting suicide. is human life so vunarable?
Posted Sunday, April 27, 2008 by MoMO
if love is a bless,
why do all the people getting hurt from it?
if love is a suffering,
why do all people desire it?

in order to be blessed and free of suffering is to be someone who dont need them.
Posted Friday, April 11, 2008 by MoMO
One must learn to forget about the pass.
One must learn how to let go.
One must learn how to move on.
One must never let the past to bother you.

golden rules that i kept telling others. but why cant i do the same? i am tryin hard to move on. i feel like i am swimming in a sea of cement. i have to keep swimming so that i wont stuck in it. but as the time goes by, it started to be more and more tedious. no idea when will it dry up. should i stop swimming?
Posted Thursday, October 25, 2007 by MoMO
really hate the life i am having right now. why cant i to be the one who are capable of controling everything? i realise when i turn back to the path i've walked, the people i thought i known, changed. people i thought i can rely on, turned their back. i am lost in my own world. unable to get out. i am lost in my dream. unable to wake up. i am not holding back my tears. just tired of tearing. i disparage others and think too higly of myself. thinking i can find the way myself. thinking i can do what others cant. apparantly, i am thinking too much. i am just someone that are insignificant and debilitated.
Posted Wednesday, October 24, 2007 by MoMO
how can i forget the things that you did when all you do is keep me reminded? why do you always appear infont of me when i decided to forget what i been through with you. i cant help but feel that i will be haunt by you forever. it is just like a curse that follow me wherever i go. i seriously didnt know you had such a impact. what an insult to me. always thought that i can handle everything but eventually when things link to you, i lose. totally lose to myself. and it's really an insult to admit you really meant(notice: past tense) alot to me. and it's really a torture to even see you. to see you moving on in your live and here i am, stuck in a past and memories that i really hate. it really annoys me! fuck!
Posted Friday, September 21, 2007 by MoMO
if i say that i dont miss those days, i am lying. there are too much things that i missed. badly. but one thing i learn from a friend, no matter how bad it is now, i still have to move on. and i think that i am bless with friends that i can fall back on. whereby you can trust them and they will never leave you in the middle of the dark. i just feel weird (or i am weird?)that all those people who truly my friend, does not end up the one which i had been thinking they were. and, yup, i am back to square one. thank the momo that hear me out when i cried. to bomb me smses to make me laugh. and thank those old friends who listen to my nagging. =^.^=

manage to recover two picture during my reformatting..




Posted Wednesday, September 05, 2007 by MoMO
the world abandon me or i abandon the world?

why is it so hard to savage this? is there really nothing i could do? or is there anything i CAN do? why is it draining off all my energy without me noticing? it is hard to savage. but it is harder to abandon it.

i hate all this. really hated it. hate my mask, hate myself, hate to put on a smile to everyone, hate to put up a strong front, hate being optimistic, hate the cheerful me, hate the long hair me, hate mine everything. just hate it. ever waking up in the morning thinking who you really are? i am sick and tired of being what people wanted me to be. i just want to be myself for one second. just want to be my cry baby self. just want to cry out loud. just want to throw tantrum. i just need someone who are willing to listen to all this. someone who accept me for who i am. not who they want me to be.
Posted Thursday, August 09, 2007 by MoMO
when a friend doesnt treat you as friends, do you all still consider as friend anymore? answer: no..
this blog is for someone who doest treat my beloved friend as friends. and for people who doest cherish what they have. people who dont behave like human doesnt fit to be treated like one.
Posted Friday, August 03, 2007 by MoMO
never let go of someone that you love. never think that you will get him back again even though you let go of him. never regret something that you know you had done wrong. never to be too sure of yourself. never think too highly of yourself and think that he will forever stay beside you.
never say never again after what i had learn.
Posted Thursday, July 19, 2007 by MoMO
okie.. whatever.. school had reopen and i cant get use to the life of getting up early for school. 6 in the morning is too much for me. i usually sleep 7 am in the holidays. a switch like this can easily kill me and my complexion. school is a torture and pe is hell. climbing up and down of the stairs and running round the stadium is not a very good idea of training the students up. well.. that is an opinion of a student (yea yea me!! that student). all these dumb training had cause a lot of student having muscle ache in the next morning. yea. that is what i am having RIGHT NOW.
Posted Monday, June 04, 2007 by MoMO
My internet is freaking down again because i didnt pay the bills. the only time i can get to blog is to secretly use my neighbour's internet or blogging in school. yea, dont ask me why i never pay my bills because i got no money to pay. (like duh?!) got so many debts to clear before thinking of getting back my internet to work again. top of the list will be forking out 25 bucks for my up coming NUS shoot. think of not to join but i so wanted to.. second on my list is to pay back my fren the sum of money she loan me. third, will be payin my phone bills. ever heard of handphone spoiling the day line being disrupted? can anyone get any more unfortunate then me? so even if i get my line working, i may not be able to pick up calls. like wise.. oh ya, and 25 bucks for class chalet too.. my god..

With so many things on my "paying list", when will i be able to get my internet up running again? so next time when you guys run into me, dont ask about my internet! *audrey laugh and walk away..
Posted Wednesday, May 02, 2007 by MoMO
alright.. i admit that i got very bad EQ can? i just cant seems to manage my friendship well(i think..). it seems like everyday i am getting everyone around me angry. without noticing it myself. oh fuck.. can you all just tell me what happen if i somehow got you angry? because this is so uncomfortable thinking that your good friend might be angry with you and you doesnt even know it!! i hope that what you say are true. that you are not angry.. because if you really are, i think i maybe suffering from some lag illness.

oh yea, this is some picture we took during our outing~! theCBG!


Posted Wednesday, April 25, 2007 by MoMO
school had just reopen and i get myself into a mess.. changing a new look may seems like a good idea. but when changing look became spoiling your hair and making you look like some kinda idiot is not a good idea after all.. my perm is so bad that i nearly ask for a one month MC just to shut myself from the world. my hair is making me so paranoid that even when people was laughing, i think they are laughing at my hilarious hairdo. my god! why am i getting myself into such humiliation? why do i have to make my own life so miserable? maybe i should look at a brighter side. now that i had perm my hair, i can have an extra cushioning to my head when sleeping.. or maybe i can tied my hair to whatever hair style i like now? great.. roll eyes.. i should start to rent that Korea drama goong and see how the female lead tied her hair.

okie.. i have tried my best to be the miss nice-girl here but i just cant seems to walk out of the miss meanie name. damn it.. alright.. i admit that i dont quite like "some people" in my class can? but cant expect me to like him/she all right? i had tried my best and it is starting to improve. although i may shoot them the i-hate-you look. but that doesnt mean that i am mean can? it's just that, i cant really stand it already! and i am just being true to myself. audrey roll eyes again. whatever..

oh ya! and i am so damn happy that eli finally transfer to my class!! yea!! this is the most happy things that i have encounter ever since school reopens. (anyway i have been bumping into lots of shit lately..)
Posted Wednesday, April 04, 2007 by MoMO
i realise that it had been a long time before i went to east coast park today. still remember that secondary school, east coast use to be my second home. quite reluctant to go actually.. but end up to be fun. maybe it is time to dump the past behind.

have you ever eaten 3 stick of satay for ten bucks? i do..

Posted Tuesday, March 13, 2007 by MoMO
well well, some great and noble person said that study and play must happen at the same time right? (erm.. audrey, who is that noble people you are talking about?) ah! never mind who said that! but we sure had a lot of fun!

in case you are not sure what are we doing, we are trying to snatch the food in front of us. and yes.. it is an empty cuo noodle.. -_- and poor kx and eli had to act greedy with me. lol! other then eating while study, we must do some exercise to wake ourself up.
okie.. we NG alot of time can? we cant help but bust out laughing at how many times we had NG. (my mum must be wondering how come she feel earthquake) and i admit that we had took a quite long break. and it's time to ... study!......(nothing to be happy about)



and is a little(is very can!?) messy on the table. papers and all around. simplex.. duplex.. FM.. AM.. PM.. OSI.. arg..! oh fuck! cannot get in.. so gonna die.. well well.. did some noble man said that besties will tide you over whatever hardship you had? (alright.. i really want to meet that noble man..)


and hopefully we will remember the so call date in 2009.










Posted Monday, March 05, 2007 by MoMO
teacher or "insulter"?
who can be more hypocrite then our very own teacher? not to say all, but sad to sad, almost all. stop giving me that "i care for you" look when all i can see is "i care for my pay slip" face. stop telling us with your lame and un-interesting story of how you get up early in the morning and come to school even though you are tired. because THAT'S YOUR JOB. you are paid to do so, so stop complaining and nagging. dont telling me how hard you tried to help us even if we dont use our brain(quote word by word by someone who teaches me). and if we really know how to do the question, we dont need you. quit reminding us that we ARE already ite student, we should use more brain. if not, i have to remind you that you are JUST a ite teacher. and you will aways only a ite teacher. get it? sometimes i wonder, how could someone with a english standard like you be a teacher? i really wonder. or because they pity you? that's why they hired someone like you to be a teacher. highly possible.
Posted Monday, February 05, 2007 by MoMO
thanks for saying nice things to me. even though they are not from your heart. thanks for trying your best to be nice to me although you dont feel like to. i wonder, since when did our friendship turn sour. is it because of me? or is it you? i am confuse. sometimes you seems so nice, but yet, sometimes, your words are so cruel. which of you should i believe in? i am confused by your words. which sentance should i believe?
all of you seems to be so different. so different that it scared me. cause it all happen in one day. is that what you all use to be? maybe i did not see clearly right from the start i knew all of you. but now i am seeing clearer and clearer. i choose not to believe what i see. i choose to act ignorance. i choose to blind myself in laughter everytime i see the ugly sight. to stop myself for loathing something i adore most before. to stop the history for repeating..
living in shadows and fear. living in sorrow. living in a cycle that keep repeating. even if it cost everything, i wont let you win. i wont let you take away things that is MINE. you are not me and you will never be able to be me.
Posted Wednesday, January 24, 2007 by MoMO

why is it so hard to maintain the friendster between us? i never know maintaining this friendship is so hard and tiring. i feel like giving up. i tried and tried to do anything that can help. but it doesnt work. in fact, it is getting worse. damn it. i so piss off. i am giving up now. stop asking me why. whatever i do, it does not help at all. i feel like i sm the only side that are maintaining this. fuck.. i am wasting my time. all this are only one sided. if he doesnt care, why should i? shut up and buzz off. i hate the sight of you and it is irritating me. just fuck off!
Posted Friday, December 29, 2006 by MoMO
Silently through all the days
my heart aches cause you are not here
Took for granted you will be there
I never showed I cared
and now you are only in my dreams
All the time could never heal
What I have lost and what I feel
You were taken far away
and now it’s just too late
and fate has sealed my destiny
Sadness cuts my heart so deep
What a life it could’ve been
By myself in disbelief with misery and grief
this never was supposed to be
Posted Thursday, December 28, 2006 by MoMO
rain
it had been raining for ages and ages. i'm tucked cosily in my own bed with my lap top with me. don't really feel like blogging any entry as my right arm is aching again and my right knee is giving me problem this few days. i think i will be half-body paralyse soon.(all aches on the right side) but it just feel so good when i'm at home safely, watching all the people running to the nearest void deck for shelter. i remember all the days when me and friends were under the rain playing happily, didnt even realise that people can see through our wet uniform. (come to think of it, no wonder i fell sick easily in those days) i think all i want to do is to get home quick if it rains now. no besties to play punk in the rain with me, no buddies to play slapping-hand-hard games with me and no bitches to bitch around with me in the school. guess i'm still not use to the boring and no-life ITE school life.
disappointment
my arm is aching badly now. and my shooting skill are failing me when the competition is just round the corner. i feel so down and disappointed with myself. i cant accept another failure again. i had lose and i am sure i dont like the feeling of losing. people kept telling me that life is bond to have lose and winning. and i really meant telling. if somebody lose, i will say the same thing to them. but if you are the one who really lose, will you think the same? i dont think so. damn.. it's aching again. i had let my friends down. i broke a promise that i promised. i had done something that i hate most. breaking the god-damn promise. another disappointment. please dont make me promise any thing. and dont give me promises when you are going to break it.
Posted Friday, December 22, 2006 by MoMO
update

okie.. i am tired. let the photo do all e talking ya? we went to laguna and have fun!


is she fren? or is she trying to drown her?


answer: best fren~!


striaght out of the movie?


celebrating my birthday at changi and waraku!


and of course, during my normal schooling days.


outing with my schoolmate.

and damn it. it is already 5:13am in the morning. i had beed re-doing this blog for several times due to the poor connection of my neighbour. (shh.. i am stealing internet access from next door. hurhurhur~ *evil laghter)

Posted Tuesday, August 01, 2006 by MoMO
confuse..
confuse.. do i like you? i am afraid that i might do the wrong decision again. and again, i all hurt myself. and again, i hurt someone. been telling myself that love grows. but apparently, it does not. why do people had to make decision? why cant i just slack around and let fate do all the decision making? i am tired. tired of being loved. tired of loving someone. tired of everything that had been and happening in my life. life does not suck. but it is just tiring. so tiring that sometimes, it just drain out all my energy. energy for me to love someone. energy for me to think. still remembering the first time that i fell in love. excited and it feels so good that i wanted to fall in love again. but why do i feel so suffocating now?
Posted Monday, June 12, 2006 by MoMO
out-of-job
officially out of job as a sales girl now. damn it.. how long have i been working in this line? i think i have turned rusty after i quitted silvertouch. or shall i say i dont have to handle the relationship between colleagues when working in silvertouch. i just couldnt get use to life sitting around in the shop doing nothing but gossiping about what a hunk the customer is or what a bitch his girlfriend is. just because i am a new girl doesnt give 'em a chance to toss every of the hardwork to me. i am sick and tired of going to work everyday, talking to a butch of sickening boot-licker. i had no choice. i had to quit. i had to get the hell out of there asap.
sickening
Posted Thursday, June 01, 2006 by MoMO
i miss..
i cant seems to catch up. everyone is moving forward except for me. i am so lack behind in studies that i wonder i should continue or not. i miss my old school. i miss my friends. i miss my teacher. i miss the laughter we use to have in the class. i regretted saying you crap too much, Ms Syafeena. Mrs Foo, i regretted saying your unpresentable armpit hair and refuse to attend your lesson. Mdm tami Mohan, i am sorry that i say you are a indian rapper. the teacher i have now is so much lousier then you all are. they are monotoned, retarded and so un-fun. what's worst? he is really suck at telling a joke. now i would love to have a teacher that raps, a teacher whom we can laugh at, a teacher that will crap with us.

dearest mingyueh, i am sorry that i always made fun of you when you speak perfect english. but though you speak perfect english, you will never laugh at me for being a neighbourhood school student and you taught me how to pronouce them well. chorpeng, jackson and gang, sorry for scolding you guys noisy. thanks for making our class full of laughter. guanjie, i regretted thinking you are nosey when you care so much more then anyone else for me. thanks for not forgetting the blur me and encourage me through my hardest time. so sorry weilong, for giving you so much trouble at studies. you never stop waking me up when i fell deep into a non-studying mood. yet in the past, i thought you always loved to force us study. you guys are so much more understanding then some of my friends here. you guys will never despise me just because i am from a neighbourhood school or just because i dont understand any of the thing that Mr yip says.

the school is never so big in the past. i dont have to run from classes to classes to make it on time. i dont have to late for class just because the lift is full. and i dont have to look for seats in the canteen. i miss you, bedok north sec! i regretted saying you a non-capable(wu neng) school. i regret hoping that you are bigger then what you are now. and i regretted think of suggesting lift in the school.

one will only missed the thing when they lost it. why? because we know we will never be able to get it back.
Posted Monday, May 29, 2006 by MoMO
neighbourhood school
so what if you are from a really good girl's school? so what if you are well mannered at home but suck at attitude towards your classmate. dont bloody bullshit with me how "high class" your secondary school use to be as we all are now the same school. if your secondary school was so bloody damn good, why are you here in ite? just scram if you are so unhappy about sitting in a class of ex-neighbourhood secondary school. dont go around complaining we speak poor english act as if you know none of the mandarin we spoke. you are a chinese.
Posted Sunday, May 21, 2006 by MoMO

article about the disease boresome

long long time ago, in the east side of singapore, lies the legendary NC0604D. people were often found death due to bore. at that point of time, boresome are consider an incurable disease. the cause of this disease were mainly due to monotoned lecturer and un-understandable machines. picture below were taken by photographer: audrey, anggerek.






there are some of the death's picture. picture below may bring indispose. children are advise to watch with their parents.




but now, the cure of this disease had been found. with the help of sequence photo shot and a normal camera phone, people in NC0604D dare to step into the class even with Mr John Yip in.

reported by: audrey

Posted Thursday, May 11, 2006 by MoMO
raining day..
open the window and let the cold wind blow in. feeling the rain drop on my palm. so cooling.. so calm.. i always does not have the chance to feel the rain like this. when it start to rain, i will run and seek shelter. didnt know that the rain feel like this. didnt know that the wind is so gentler. not until i sit down in my room to feel them. right now.

slacking at home today after school.. tired and shag. got p.e to day and we gotta run the field two rounds. it had been quite sometimes before i run like this. four months? or half a year. either one. dashing like there are a sale somewhere out there. first girl in class but last in boys. doesnt want to lose to those guys but, who can win a guy rite? damn it.. hope that i had been training in the long holidays. regret

walked home from bedok interchange make me feel that everytime i took a bus, the 65cents(adult fare) is worth the money. dash through the express way with cars horning at me. thanks to hongyun n gang. and you! yes you! anggerek! yes! dont hide! i know you are reading this~ forgetful and blur! never return me the money. i treat this as a slimming lesson in anggerek hood & hongyun center. cost per session? o cents


trying hard to undestand what the monotoned teacher is trying to say, i failed. again. okie, i admit i suck in physic. but why must we still take science in ITE!!??
Posted Tuesday, May 09, 2006 by MoMO
lessons
not really the first lesson but at least i learn something ever since i started school. but, circuit design rocks~! although i cannot really connect the wires correctly, but it is way too cool man~ love this course.. wonder why girls hate this course. but they are only five girls in my class. can you imagine that? i'm lucky that i am not the out casted girl. but seriously speaking, our guy are more hyper den the girls. and of course, more out going. the girls in my class were like so dead. feel like i am in the movie of house of the living dead 5. one girl even looked like she is gonna cry out anytime, anywhere. girl 2: always with a nerdy guy. seriously speaking, i dont really remember much of our class people name. i remember the name, forget the face. or the other way round. laugh
Posted Monday, May 08, 2006 by MoMO
a trip to zoo

they were so tired that they slept through the whole mrt trip.doesnt care about wat the public sees. three sleep bugs and one book bug.


finally, we reached the entrance. a real one or..?

snapped..

just a reminder, peeing is not allow in pool..



is there food for me?

baabaa~~


zzz...


what is the different? the donkey or an ass? answer: Donkey=ass


squirrel caught in act


resting time~!! me and mikey


my prince charming?? (bai me wang zi) =>

how many human make up one polar bear??